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Reasons Why

Author: Raine Wynd


Rating: NC-17, m/f, explicit sex

Parts: complete

Summary: Face discovers he can't forget Amy.

Disclaimer and Notes: Not mine, just playing with someone else's discarded toys. Thanks to Viskey HeroMouse, Billy, shadowwalker213, Reckless, Pam, and everyone on the ATSB list for helping to make this better than when I started. Thanks also to Misha for the final beta.



ŸŸŸ Reasons Why ŸŸŸ


Part 1


July 1984 – Tuesday


It was well past eight o'clock when BA pulled the van into the parking lot of the hotel they'd chosen on the sheer basis that it was the first one they'd seen advertised in an hour. The A-Team was on the way back from a job in Tennessee. There'd been talk of driving straight through to LA, but the air conditioning in the van had broken, plus the van had already overheated once, and BA's temper was shorter than usual as a result. What frustrated BA the most was that he suspected it was something to do with the gunfire they'd taken sometime back, which meant a bigger repair. Wisely, Hannibal had declared they'd find a hotel and stay as long as it took to find the parts BA needed to fix the van.


Once parked, Murdock opened the van's side door on the pretext of having to walk Billy, his invisible dog, wandering off as he usually did when given the chance. BA popped the hood of the van. Smoke billowed out. He stood there a moment, looking as if he was going to curse lividly. Instead, he muttered, "Gonna need to put this on a lift," with all the intensity of a curse, then stomped off in the opposite direction, clearly angry.


The remaining two men said nothing for a long moment, both assessing the situation. Finally, Face broke the silence.


"How many rooms?" Face asked the older man who sat in the front passenger seat.


"Two. Amy gets one, the rest of us will share the other."


"You sure you want to do that?" Face asked cautiously, careful not to move. He had a lapful of sleeping female, and he didn't want to wake her any earlier than necessary.


Hannibal studied Face a moment. His gaze dropped to the woman whose head lay cradled in Face's lap, then back to Face. "Something wrong with that arrangement? You've never objected before."


"Can't a guy get his own room for a change?" Face asked. He had plans that would be easier to execute if he wasn't sharing a room with the other guys. "Considering we just made a nice profit from our last client," he added quickly.


"Given that BA's going to need a garage to fix this, this repair is going to cost some money," Hannibal pointed out.


"But Hannibal, you know I can't stand to hear BA snore."


"Wear earplugs," Hannibal said unsympathetically. "We have no idea how long it's going to take to repair the van. We might be here a while."


"Right," Face said, belatedly nodding as he reluctantly accepted he wasn't going to win the argument. "Sorry for forgetting to calculate in that factor, Hannibal."


"I'm glad we got that cleared up," Hannibal said as he stepped out of the van. "And, Lieutenant?"


"Yes, Colonel?"


Hannibal smiled genially, but his eyes were hard. "I've been watching how close you and Amy have gotten. Now, I can't stop you from being attracted to her, but you better damn well make sure that attraction doesn't interfere with the operation of this team. Understood, Lieutenant?" He stared at the younger man and waited expectantly.


"Colonel, I haven't – that's not how it is with me and Amy—" Face started to protest. How does Hannibal manage to see right through me no matter what I do? he wondered for the millionth time. He'd thought he'd been careful not to show just how interested in her he'd become.


"Yet," Hannibal countered. In a slightly gentler tone, he added, "I know you, Face. The moment you set your sights on someone, you're not going to stop until you have them. I've been appreciative of that determination more than once because it's helped the Team. You've always known where your priorities lie, even if you've had to leave the girl behind. Do I need to go any further with this conversation?"


Under other circumstances, Face would be scandalized at the thought he might be abandoning his priorities. He'd put the A-Team first in his life for nearly two decades. Despite his complaining that it held such high priority, he'd never seriously considered putting it aside. Finding someone like Amy, who nearly matched his commitment to the team with a dedication of her own, had gotten him thinking that maybe he could somehow have both the girl and the team.


Some awareness of feelings he normally kept buried had come through in the hours Amy had spent stretched across the bench seat, her head in his lap. He'd convinced himself she was off-limits, and yet his desire for her had only intensified with time and proximity. She wasn't like most of the women he spent his time with; among other things, she was more down to earth, determined, and gutsy. More importantly, she cared about what happened to him and the others of the team. The more time he spent with her, the less interested he was in society women with their racquetball games and endless social obligations.


Still…Face knew if Hannibal was talking about Face's attraction to Amy in that tone of voice, he was treading on dangerous territory. It wouldn't be smart for him to see just how much he could get away with…not now anyway.


Face sat up straighter. "Sorry, Colonel," he said. "We won't have this conversation again."


"Good." Satisfied, Hannibal walked off in the direction BA had gone.


For a moment, Face was tempted to ignore his responsibility to the team, and kiss the woman in his lap anyway. It wasn't as if any of the other guys were watching. It wasn't like they hadn't seen him kiss her, either; she'd played his girlfriend often enough in the last eighteen months. Yet Face knew his leader would be expecting him to do exactly that, which dimmed the pleasure.


With a sigh, Face tapped Amy on her cheek by her ear, waking her up.


Yawning, she sat up, stretched and asked sleepily, "Where are we?"


"An hour or so west of Tulsa," Face told her, enjoying the way she looked rumpled from sleep. As a man who loved women, he appreciated the simple honesty of a woman whose makeup had long worn off. 


She ran a hand over her head, expecting to find tangled hair. "So who braided my hair?" she asked, surprised at the neat French braid.


"Murdock reminded me that the last time you'd fallen asleep, you complained about having to untangle your hair," Face said, deliberately making his voice sound more casual than he felt. Even though he hadn't done more than to help hold her so Murdock could reach her hair easily, he'd been nervous that she wouldn't like it. "He thought you might appreciate not having to worry about it."


Amy smiled widely. "I'll have to thank him. I must've slept like a rock to not notice him braiding my hair. So what else did I miss?"


"You missed lunch and the argument where BA threatened to kill everyone. You also missed the discovery that the van has some damage due to the gunshots it took a week or so ago that BA somehow missed fixing, probably because we managed not to use the van all week and he was kept busy with that bus we fixed up for our client. That discovery led to a run to a very seedy 7-11 to buy more coolant. Oh, and you also missed dinner."


She absorbed that and the fact that Hannibal was deep in conversation with a very agitated BA at the other end of the small parking lot, in full view of where she and Face sat. Face waited; aware it usually took her a few minutes to wake up, and therefore took longer to digest any information presented to her at that time.


She stared past Hannibal and BA, her eyes registering the broken neon sign. Surprised, she looked at Face. "We're actually staying in a hotel while the van's getting fixed? I thought we were trying to save money."


Face shrugged easily. "Hannibal's decision," he said in his best 'I just follow orders' tone.


She lit up at that news. "Oh, it's going to be so nice not to have to deal with a camp shower….Remind me to thank him. I take it we're to get rooms for everyone?"


Face smiled. "Whenever you're ready."


In reply, she grabbed her purse, then stepped out of the van. Face followed a moment later, pulling the side door shut behind him.


It didn't take long for them to secure the rooms. They returned outside, keys in hand. Hannibal lounged against the back of the van, smoking a cigar, while Murdock pulled out their luggage. Immediately, Murdock passed out the various duffels that served as their luggage. Murdock took possession of his own bag before locking up the gun case in the back of the van and then stepping out of the van, shutting the van door and locking it.


"So what did you get?" Hannibal asked as he blew out a stream of smoke.


"Third floor, rooms 326 and 348," Face said. "Opposite ends of the hall, looks like. It's a non-smoking hotel, all rooms, all floors. The clerk stressed that enough to let me know she didn't appreciate the way I smelled of cigar smoke, Hannibal." Face smiled to ease the sting of his words. "Never thought we'd run across a completely smoke-free hotel, but—" he shrugged, accepting the unusual situation, "—new town, new rules."


Hannibal eyed his cigar, and then deliberately smoked more of it, causing Face and Amy to grin. "So the cigar stays outside. No problem. What else?"


"The hotel's full," Amy told him. "The clerk seemed worried about whether or not we were going to stay very long."


Hannibal puffed on his cigar, then remarked, "Well. We'll see whether or not we'll oblige by leaving early."


"You asked if it was OK if I brought Billy?" Murdock said plaintively.


"It's fine, Murdock," Face assured him.


"You didn't ask," Murdock said, with certainty. "You never ask. I'll just smuggle him in anyway. They'll never know." 


"Where's BA?" Amy asked curiously.


"I suggested he go for a run," Hannibal said easily, but something in the way he said it made Face and Amy aware it had been a form of punishment. "He'll be back in a half hour, but you don't have to worry about him. We'll take 348 and see you at 0630." He took the key Face handed him. "Goodnight, Amy, Lieutenant." 


"Night, Hannibal," Amy said as Face echoed the sentiment.


They headed back into the hotel as Hannibal and Murdock lingered in the parking lot to allow Hannibal to finish his cigar.


"Hungry?" Face asked her as he accompanied her to her room.


Amy thought about it. "Now that you have me thinking about it, yes, I am. I saw a Denny's up the street about a block. Want to go there?"


Face smiled. "Not a problem." Deliberately, he dropped his bag off in her room, wanting the excuse to stop by later. Amy noticed, but made no objection.

While they were waiting for her food to arrive, Amy excused herself, saying she needed to let her editor know she wasn't going to be back as soon as she'd thought.


She slipped back into the booth just as the server was delivering her order.


"Either that didn't take long or the cooks are on the ball tonight," Face observed.


"Had to leave a message," Amy explained. "I gave my editor the number for the hotel; hopefully, I'll hear back from him tomorrow." She ate a bit of her scrambled eggs.


Face sipped coffee, more out of needing the prop than really wanting the drink. Even without the added caffeine, he knew he wasn't going to sleep tonight anyway. Knowing she was down the hall, knowing he shouldn't do anything with her, was going to keep him awake. He'd already partially figured out how he could be with her without Hannibal noticing…and he was more bothered by the fact that he didn't feel guilty about his plans.


"Is your editor still after you to do something more than the reporting you're doing now?"


"He did mention to me before I came with you on this trip that there might be a foreign correspondent position opening up he thought I'd be good for." She shrugged. "A year ago, I would have jumped at it."


"And now?" Face asked, interested in her answer.


She looked at him, wry amusement in her eyes. "Now, I've had a year and a half of being chased by the military, of aiding and abetting wanted fugitives in their quest to help people who have nowhere else to turn, of learning things like how to make a cannon that can shoot cabbages –" Face grinned at the memory "—and I can't imagine how my life would be if I wasn't living it like this."


"Well," Face said casually, "it would be a hell of a lot safer. You wouldn't be under as much suspicion by the Army, for one thing."


Amy considered the idea while she worked her way through her eggs and toast. When she was more than halfway through, she said, "My life was pretty damn boring before I sought you guys out."


"Amy," Face said quietly, "didn't we warn you not to fall in love with us? We're not perfect. Aside from the fact we're wanted fugitives, I lie to people, Hannibal bluffs his way through life, Murdock's crazy, and BA's just looking for a peace he's not going to find anytime soon. We're not the kind of guys you'd take home to meet your mother." He pressed a hand to his heart, knowing on some level he was trying to convince himself as much as he was her. "I mean, speaking for myself, I like to think I'm a fairly respectable man, but I know I'm still a lousy choice for someone to fall in love with. It's just bad bet."


She half-laughed. "Too late, Templeton," she said, using his real name to emphasize her point. "I already did. Did I never tell you I was already infatuated with all of you before I even met you?"


"Yes, but — Amy, you have a pretty good life. Boring is good, boring's safe."


"That's my point," she said. "It's safe. I can't go back to living like that. I know what it's like to be on the jazz now. If I take the position, I'll wonder if you're safe, if you have someone like me to help you out, if there's something I might still be able to do for you regardless of where I am."


"Not content to sit on the sidelines?" he teased her.


"Oh, God, no. Can you imagine me there?"


He chuckled. "Not really, no." His humor faded as he realized he was trying to convince her to leave. He didn't really want her to go; if she left, he might not see her again unless he made the effort. It would be harder to connect with her; she wouldn't be checking in like she did now. That meant a kind of commitment Face rarely made on a long-term basis. She'd be worth it, he knew. There was only one hitch to his plan: he had no idea if she wanted him to be a part of her life once she wasn't with the Team. He didn't want to lose her friendship, but he wanted more than that.


"But being here with us means you're taking a lot of risks," Face pointed out, needing to continue the conversation to see where it led. "You've gotten shot at, tied up, and used as bait to try and get at us. Go back to being just Amy Allen, reporter, and you have a shot at something normal."


"And I could be hit by a bus while crossing the street," she countered. "Come on, Face, you know the team needs someone on the outside. Why not me? Besides, I like knowing that I'm helping. Even if some days it just feels like I'm doing nothing else but being Research Girl."


"Oh, but you make for a very beautiful researcher," Face told her, meaning it.


She slanted a look at him. "Flattery will get you everywhere and you know it," she chided him. "It's too late for you to swell my head with compliments on how I look."


Hearing the challenge in her words, Face accepted it. "Ah, but it's the truth. You're a very beautiful woman, Amy, and I'd be blind not to appreciate it." He laid his hand on top of her left hand and met her gaze steadily. "I'm not blind."


She glanced down at his hand covering hers and looked at him warily. "What are you up to now, Face?"


He smiled. "I could say five feet ten." He caressed the back of her hand and then let it go. "But then you'd accuse me of having even more ulterior motives than I currently have."


Amy shook her head. "You're incorrigible."


Face grinned. "Would you have me any other way?"


She considered it briefly. "No, because then you wouldn't be the man I know." She grinned. "And that would be someone I'm not sure I'd like."

She ate a bit more of her late-night breakfast special before pushing her plate aside. "So what happens tomorrow?"


"We help BA find the parts or a garage so we can get back on the road," Face explained. "It's been two weeks; I'm starting to wonder if the military lost us. With any luck, we have a few more days before they find us." He shrugged. "If the van gets fixed tomorrow, Hannibal will probably want to push through the rest of the trip, which means you're next at the wheel."


Amy rolled her eyes. "BA hates the way I drive," she complained as the waitress came to the table.


"Yes, but Hannibal wants him off the wheel. BA needs a break from driving, but won't admit it, as usual."


"Why doesn't Hannibal drive?" Amy wondered.


"Because BA hates the way Hannibal drives worse than he hates the way you drive," Face answered calmly. "Plus, Hannibal will claim since he's our leader, he doesn't have to when we're all perfectly capable of taking turns."


"Any dessert tonight? The cherry pie's pretty good," the waitress interjected.


"No thanks," Face answered her. "Just the check, please."


The waitress pulled out the slip and dropped it on the table, then cleared the table of the dirty dishes. "Enjoy your evening," she said, clearly already dismissing them in her mind as she walked away.


"Does BA like the way any of us drives?" Amy wondered as they got out of the booth.


Face smiled. "No. The van's his baby."


Amy shook her head. "Men and their machines."


"And what are you driving now, hmm?" Face countered. "Who insisted on taking me along to see if I could negotiate a better price for her classic convertible?"


Amy shot him a look as they approached the cashier stand. "Least you could do after you guys reduced my old one to scrap metal."


"Yes, but you weren't willing to settle for anything less than that specific car." Face smiled at the cashier and without missing a beat, greeted and paid the cashier, adding a tip so average as to not be memorable. "Not that I blame you. Low mileage, one owner, drove like a dream, and you looked great in it. If I didn't know you, I wouldn't believe you acted as if you knew nothing about cars."


Amy grinned as they exited the restaurant. "Did you think I was too over the top? I though the look on that dealer's face when I told him – after I paid him – that he'd sold me a special edition for way under book value."


He chuckled. "No, but that part – that part was gloating, my dear. Doesn't really become you."


"Oh, as if you haven't?" she retorted.


"I," he said loftily, "do my gloating in private."


She chuckled. "Yeah, right, and I'm the Easter Bunny," she said sarcastically, then fell silent.


For a few minutes, Face let himself dream. He and Amy were a couple in love on a vacation. The worst fear they had was that someone would steal their car or something from their hotel room, maybe turn them into the next horrible tourist tragedy headline – simple, ordinary people fears, nothing like the government wanted them by any means necessary, or that they'd pissed off enough bad guys over the last seventeen years to fill a scrapbook. After touring the town, they'd go back to their hotel room and have wild, headboard-rattling sex.


I need to get laid, Face thought, painfully aware that it had been a while. Even as he thought that, he knew a huge part of the reason was walking beside him, apparently oblivious to the direction of his thoughts.


He escorted Amy to her room. "I'd tell you good night, but somehow I don't think you're going to be sleeping," he said.


She smiled wryly. "I saw some signs saying this place had a pool; I'm going to check it out. If I don't get some exercise, I'm not going to fall asleep."


For half a heartbeat, Face thought about joining her in the pool. He knew she kept a very revealing bikini in her duffel bag; it did double duty as underwear and as role camouflage. Then he reconsidered; if he followed her to the pool, he really would be tempting himself. He didn't know why tonight of all nights he felt compelled to push the line they'd drawn between friends and lovers, but he knew with a certainty that he would regret it if he did push the issue now.


Instead, he offered, "Do you need a hand with tying your top?"


Amy shook her head. "Thanks, but you should get a shower and some sleep." She smiled. "Besides, Murdock showed me a trick with tying string so that it's easier to tie without having to undo it all the time."


"I wondered what he was trying to teach you when we arrived in Kentucky."


"Knot-tying with some string he found in the back of the van. He said it was leftover from learning all about cowboys." As she spoke, she made her way over to her bag, which she'd dumped on the bed farthest from the door.


"No wonder Hannibal said we needed to see if you could untie yourself blindfolded."


"Oh, great, new things to learn," Amy complained good-naturedly while Face stepped into the bathroom and grabbed a towel for Amy. As he'd expected, the towels were stacked on a rack along the end of the shower stall, forcing him to actually walk into the bathroom rather than simply grab them off the wall.


Too many shared spaces together had left both of them comfortable in seeing each other in various states of undress. Amy had stripped off her jeans, underwear, and socks and traded them for the bikini bottom; she was in the midst of shucking off her bra and T-shirt when he stepped out of the bathroom.


Face took the opportunity, as he always did, to quickly appreciate her beauty. She was built on the slender side, but still curvy where it mattered. Her brown hair had grown well past her shoulders over the last several months. There were new scars on her skin from shrapnel and knives, permanent reminders that she'd been right in the line of fire along with the rest of the A-Team. He wished, as he always did, that she didn't have those scars, but he didn't spend more time dwelling on it. He had enough to distract him at it was.


Still, he was a man, and a man attracted to her. Seeing her breasts bare made him pause, made him grasp the towel a little more firmly than necessary, and swallow hard. Amy looked across the room at him, and she stopped trying to put on the top of her bikini. They stared at each other, both suddenly, painfully aware that they were something more than just friends and something less than lovers.


Desire, kept to a low simmer, flared to boiling. Amy breathed visibly, clearly shaken, and just as clearly aroused.


"Templeton?" she asked, her voice nearly a whisper.


He stood in front of her without knowing how he'd gotten there; the towel was dropped to the floor, forgotten. He touched her face, stroking it. She leaned into the touch, her eyes wide. He drew a breath, suddenly hyperaware of his need to breathe. Slowly, he bent his head down and pressed his lips against hers, gently covering her mouth. When he didn't meet any resistance, Face used his tongue to trace the outline of her lips, deepening the kiss. She parted her lips and kissed him back. This was familiar; he'd kissed her before, but never without the knowledge that they weren't doing it to look good for someone else.


Heat shot through him at her response and he kissed her more hungrily. She pressed up against him, and the feel of her skin against his body sent a shock through him. Instinctively, Face's hands moved to cup her breasts. They were full in his hands and he wanted to lick them, see how she responded to that. She leaned closer, arching into his touch and kissing him with passion of her own, whimpering as if she couldn't get enough.


Her whimper was like a gunshot. It made him remember this was Amy he was kissing and fondling. She wasn't some one-night stand; she trusted him, she deserved better than him, and this wasn't the time or the place to push the limits of their friendship. If he had sex with her now, he wasn't sure he could trust himself not to want to protect her the next time Hannibal ordered her to do something for the team. As much as he wanted her – and he knew in that instant that Hannibal had been right about how he'd set his sights on Amy – Face knew the right thing to do was to stop.


Hating himself for doing it, he made himself let go and take a step back. As he'd expected, she was even more alluring aroused, and he felt like a heel for wanting what he shouldn't have.


They stood there for what felt like an eternity, not saying a word. The skin between Amy's collarbone and breasts was flushed with passion, and they were both breathing hard.


Shakily, Amy pulled on the bikini top. He watched her, hypnotized by her motions. With a start, he forced himself to move, backtrack, and pick up the towel. Not trusting himself to hand the towel to her, he tossed it to her, which she caught easily.


"Enjoy your swim," he told her, forcing himself to resume a normalcy he didn't feel. He reached for his bag and walked to the door. "I'll see you at breakfast."


She nodded, unable to hide her relief at the excuse for distance.  "See you in the morning."


Face forced himself to walk out of the room and pulled the door shut behind him. His mind was reeling as he walked down the hallway to the room he was sharing with the rest of the team.


I'm a fool, he thought. Did I really need to know she wants me? I thought I did, but now…all I can see is the potential for disaster. If she gets hurt –

The mere thought of it struck pain through him and he nearly stumbled.


First thing tomorrow, I need to figure out how to give us both some distance. I need time to think about how I'm going to handle this. I have to see about getting the van restocked anyway – might as well get an early start on it.


Decision made, he went to take a shower.



Face kept himself scarce the following day, inventing reasons to linger over his errands. By the end of the day, however, he found himself missing Amy. Giving in to the need he'd been denying all day, he decided to see where she was. She wasn't in her room when he checked it. A quick scan of the scattered clothing on the bed told him she was swimming. Slipping out of her room, he headed down to the otherwise deserted pool, where she was swimming laps.


"Practicing for the Olympics?" he teased her as she reached the end of one lap. He was careful to remain a safe distance away from the edge of the pool, not wanting to accidentally get splashed.


Startled, she stopped, nearly sunk, realized she had to either tread water or grab the edge of the pool, and opted to hold on to the edge.


"You're not dressed to go swimming," she observed, sounding more bewildered than the situation warranted.


"Came to ask you if you'd had dinner," he said casually.


She blinked. "Yeah, a few hours ago. Hannibal was wondering where you'd run off to."


Undeterred, he countered with, "What about dessert?"


She shook her head. "No, thanks." Still, she hesitated, as if she didn't want to push him away.


"Not even for chocolate?" He pounced on her hesitation, aware he was being far less than subtle. At the moment, he didn't feel like he had time to be subtle.


He took a deep breath, mindful of the fact that he had to be more direct with her than he would normally be with anyone else. Not only had she earned the right to his honesty, she wasn't likely to accept any of his usual methods of seduction. "Come on, Amy; don't make me eat all alone. Every time I do, some strange woman tries to pick me up. Now, normally, I'd be flattered at the attention, but the only company I want tonight is yours."


"No plans to find a woman who can't resist your charm?" she teased him, pulling herself out of the pool. Quickly, he grabbed the towel she'd left draped on a nearby chaise lounge.


"No, that's too easy," he told her as she stepped towards him, and took the towel from his hands.


"Too easy?" she asked in surprise, toweling herself off with quick motions. "Face, is there something wrong with you?"


Face looked at her, seeing her beauty as if for the first time. Desire rose in him, made him dizzy with longing. "Yes," he told her, closing the distance between them. "I haven't done something I've wanted to do all day, and it's driving me crazy."


He drew her into his arms, ignoring the fact she was still damp from the pool, and kissed her deeply. Startled by his actions, Amy didn't respond at first, but he ignored her surprise and continued to kiss her. After a moment's hesitation, she started kissing him back, meeting his desire.


He took his time in kissing her, relishing the way she gave herself freely to kissing him back. His pulse pounded as her breath started to hitch. He could go on kissing her forever. He'd always enjoyed their kisses before, but knowing she hadn't been faking her attraction to him, knowing he was crossing a line, knowing he'd have hell to pay when Hannibal found out, all served to incite him more. 


This time, Amy was the one who stepped back. "I think –" she said breathlessly, "we should stop."


"Why?" he asked her. "From the way you've been reacting, I'd say you want me just as much I want you."


She held his gaze. Arousal glittered in her eyes and flushed her collarbone. "What about the others?"


"You let me worry about them. It's just you and me, here." He smiled, though he felt a twinge of guilt at the reminder he had other responsibilities.



"Shh," he said, putting a finger to her lips. "You let me worry about that," he repeated, gathering his courage to say what he wanted.


"Amy, I don't know what it is, or why, but something about you…" He shook his head slowly. "The more I'm with you, the more I want you. I tried not giving in last night, and all day long all I've thought about is how much I still want you."


"You're not saying this just because you need me for some scam?" she asked warily.


He shook his head. "Not this time," he said honestly.


Slowly, she smiled. "Then let's go somewhere where we're not going to be interrupted."


"Sounds like a plan to me," he agreed, closing the distance and kissing her again. He didn't want to stop, didn't want to pay attention to things like the fact that they were in a public area, but he made himself do so. Amy was worth waiting for. He took her hand as they headed up to her room, and couldn't stop kissing her every chance he got along the way.


Standing in the hallway outside her room, Face wished he had thought to prepare the room, to make it special for her. He wanted to stand out from anyone else she might have had before, and yet…. If he had, she might not see his desire for her as being anything other than some set up.


Amy fumbled with the key and chuckled nervously. "Damn things," she swore, finally managing to stick the key in the lock properly. She opened the door and stepped inside, moving towards the center of the room.


Following her inside, Face shut the door behind them and threw the lock.


She stood nervously before him. "Why me?" she asked. "You could have anyone."


"Just because I can doesn't mean I want to," he pointed out. "You're different. With you, I can be just me." He stepped closer. "I don't have a lot of good reasons, Amy. I'm not used to explaining myself to anyone, not when it comes to this."


She looked at him. A smile trembled over her lips. "I used to tell myself you meant nothing when you kissed me, that it was all an act, but it wasn't, was it?"


He shook his head. "At first, sure," he admitted, "but not since I really got to know you."


As if that had been the source of her hesitation, she let go of a breath she'd been holding and closed the distance. She kissed him with reckless abandon, giving herself over to a passion she'd clearly been holding back. He let himself be swept up in the storm of desire, relishing the opportunity to kiss her as he hadn't been able to before.


This time, her whimpers only served to incite the fire inside him. He needed to touch her, to taste her. The bikini she wore was little protection from his roving mouth and questing hands. She, too, seemed impatient with the clothing he wore, and equally desirous to know him. It took a bit more effort than Face would have liked to divest himself of clothing, but soon, they were both naked.


Amy pushed the covers back and slipped into the bed. He paused to fish a condom out of his wallet and place it on the nightstand before leaning in to kiss Amy again. She shifted over to make room as he climbed onto the bed. Intent on moving and pushing the covers completely out of the way, it took her a moment before she really looked at him.


Her gaze swept down his body, and then abruptly stalled. Her eyes went wide as she stared at him. Her eyes went wide as she stared at him. He knew he was bigger than the average man, and had wondered what her reaction was going to be. She said the first thing that came to mind. "No wonder you're so successful with women."


He chuckled. "Only you would say something like that to me right now," he observed, amused.


She shot him a quick smile and reached out to caress his cock with both hands. "I'm not complaining," she assured him.


At her touch, he shuddered with pleasure. She leaned up to kiss him deeply as her hands stroked his hard length once, twice, with just enough pressure that told him she'd done this sort of thing before.


He groaned even as he was grateful for her experience. "Amy," he said warningly.


Her smile was wicked, but she reached behind him for the condom. Ripping the package open with trembling hands, she managed to slip it on him.


He kissed her as she eased back onto the bed, maneuvering both of them so that she lay beneath him. He took a breast in his mouth and sent them both soaring, loving the way she arched up against him, as taut as any bowstring. Her hands pressed against his back, convulsing as they tried to hold him closer. Deliberately, he moved to the other breast, relishing her moans and the way her reactions heightened his own arousal.


"Please, Templeton," she pleaded. "I need you."


He lifted his head and met her gaze. He shifted his position and carefully slid into her. She was so wet, he slid into her a little deeper than he'd intended.

She let out a gasp.


Though he wanted nothing more than to bury himself deep inside her, he held onto his control. "You okay, Amy?"


She inhaled sharply, then exhaled. "God. Yes. I'll feel you tomorrow, but," she wiggled slightly beneath him, trying to maneuver so she could take his cock into her a little more easily, "you feel good. God. Don't stop." Unconsciously, she whimpered, clearly wanting more.


He smiled and dropped a kiss on her lips. "I'll go slow," he promised.


Tenderly, he made sure she welcomed him deeper into her body. She rose to meet his thrusts. She was on fire for him, and he for her. He could feel the heat of her body course down the entire length of his. Her legs were wrapped around his lower body, drawing him in deeper still. Her raw sensuousness sent him soaring, nearly draining all of the blood in his head and redirecting it to his cock, to the junction of his body and hers. He wanted to make the moment last, but he knew he wasn't going to be able to this time.


She couldn't control the outcry of delight as he abruptly reached between them and fingered her intimately. Shuddering, she came hard, then he yielded to the searing need for release with a loud groan.


Somehow, he managed not to collapse onto her. He stayed within her a moment, then carefully withdrew. He staggered to the bathroom where he disposed of the condom, then returned to the bed to cuddle her close.


She kissed him on his return, then closed her eyes as if to doze. After a few minutes, she asked quietly, "Do you need to leave?"


He translated her words into the worries they were, keenly aware that their passion had only delayed this conversation.  "Not unless you want to kick me out," he told her. "And Hannibal knows I was out running errands. He doesn't need to know how long they actually took." 


"And he wouldn't be surprised if you were gone all night because you found someone," she remembered reluctantly as she looked up at him from her position beside him. "I don't want you to go, but I don't want to cause any trouble for you." She looked at the way they were, then laughed softly. "Well, any more than we've already done." 


"You won't," he promised recklessly. He kissed her deeply, wanting to chase her concerns away. Tomorrow would take care of itself, and if this was the last time he held her this way, he was going to make sure neither of them forgot it. 



"Murdock, have you seen Amy?" Hannibal asked the following morning. "There's a message from her editor at the front desk."


Murdock, who was lying in the middle of a park bench across the street from the hotel, pushed his cap back out of his eyes and sat up. "Sorry, Hannibal, not since yesterday when she was doing laundry."


Hannibal nodded his acceptance of this information. "Have you seen Face since yesterday morning?"


Murdock frowned. "No. But I wouldn't worry about him; it's not a big town." He grinned. "Walked it this morning. Did you know there's a real A&W stand at the far end of town? Man, when I was a kid, I used to love going there. You know, we should go, check it out."


Hannibal smiled. He could see Murdock was just about to get up steam for yet another idea. "Not right now, Murdock, but thanks."


He headed for Amy's room. At the door, he listened carefully for any sound, but heard nothing. He hesitated a moment. There was nothing to indicate that Face was with Amy, nothing other than his suspicion, and for all he knew she could be alone. Either way, he had to know.


Hannibal straightened his posture and knocked on the door. He waited a minute, then knocked again. "Amy? It's Hannibal."


He heard something thump, then a curse, and then Amy called, "Hold on a minute." She appeared less than a minute later, pulling the door open to reveal that she was wearing a pink cotton tank top and gray running shorts. Her long hair was askew and she was running a brush through it.


"Sorry, I was napping," she apologized, setting the brush down on the dresser that lined one wall of the single-bed room. "What's up?"


He stepped into the room and shut the door behind him; the distinct smell of disinfectant spray rose to greet him. Instantly, he was suspicious; housekeeping wasn't due to arrive until after lunchtime, and it was only ten a.m. As the bathroom was right inside the doorway, a quick glance into that room told him the shower curtain had been pulled back; no one was hiding there. The closet didn't have a door, either, which meant that unless Face was hiding under the bed (something that would have been impossible to do given the fact that the mattresses were all on wooden platforms), Amy was alone. Still, he couldn't shake the impression that sex had taken place here.


He wasn't entirely sure he approved of that idea, but there was no use going back if it happened. As long Amy and Face could still help the team, what happened was none of his business. Besides, Amy was going to leave them.


"I stopped by the front desk to check and see if they were still in need of our rooms for the weekend, and they gave me the message that your editor called back."


She smiled, but the smile didn't quite reach her eyes. "Oh, thanks, I'll call him back."


He studied her. She was tougher than she looked, he knew, and ten times determined to prove she was a valuable member of his team. He'd gambled that her threat of blackmail was a bluff, and been grateful that he'd been right. Yet he knew she had a life outside of the team, more so than the rest of them in some ways.


"When were you going to mention that you're supposed to be headed for Jakarta?" he asked her.


Startled, she looked at him. From the way she reacted, Hannibal could surmise that question hadn't been the one she'd been expecting. "The message from your editor said he's expecting you back in the office on Monday so you can sign the visa application for Jakarta. What does he want you in Jakarta for?"


For a moment, she hesitated. His gut told him she'd known about this for weeks, if not months, and had been debating the issue for a while. She looked away from him and stared at the heavy drapes covering the window for a few minutes before turning to face him.


Finally, she spoke, crossing her arms as she did so." Foreign correspondent assignment. He volunteered me to go." She sighed. "It's more pay, better benefits, expense account, a promotion….but I can't imagine not being able to help you."


"Don't throw your life away on our account." He paused, sharpening his gaze as he went with gut instinct. "Or Face's, for that matter."


She stiffened at his words. "It's my life," she said coolly. "You haven't minded me risking it for your benefit."


Realizing he'd taken the wrong tactic, Hannibal switched gears. "You've said a lot about how the stories you write based on what we do is helping your career," he pointed out gently. "I was under the impression that career mattered to you."


"It does, but – Hannibal, this job offer feels like someone is trying to make sure I don't help you. Maybe Decker got someone to lean on my paper to give me this job." Amy gestured helplessly. "He did promise that he'd get me somehow."


"And maybe you've been hanging around us too long and gotten paranoid," Hannibal countered. "So what's wrong with the job?"


"Hannibal, it's Jakarta. What the hell is happening in Jakarta?" Amy asked, annoyed. "Nothing. It's the one foreign correspondent job nobody wants because it's freaking Indonesia, for God's sake. When I said I might be interested in being a foreign correspondent, I thought – as did everyone else – that it was for Paris."


"So they changed locations on you." Hannibal shrugged. "You work that for a while, get the experience you need, and then you're better off when you do put your name in for Paris. What happens if you don't take the job?"


She favored him with a cynical smile. "Probably a demotion to writing obituaries again. Maybe nothing. My editor's been pretty flexible, considering I was supposed to decide six weeks ago."


That gave Hannibal pause. "Six weeks ago you were offered a promotion, and yet you still came when I called you."


She shrugged. "You needed the help." She chuckled derisively. "What was I going to tell you? Sorry, Hannibal, I just got promoted, good luck with being the white knight for your new client?" She gestured expansively. "I don't turn my back on my friends when they need help."


He considered her words. "What if I told you it would help us to know you were safe?"


Chuckling, she shook her head. "If you expect me to say that I'm staying because of a certain lieutenant, then you'd be wrong. He's a reason, sure, maybe a little more of a reason than the rest of you, but not the reason. Whether I'm here or not, you'd wonder – if not worry – if I was safe, and you know it."


Mentally, Hannibal sighed. He'd forgotten just how hard Amy could dig her heels in once her mind was made up; it had been a while since she'd argued with him. "Take the job, Amy. Life on the run doesn't pay nearly as well, the health benefits suck, and there are no white picket fences to look forward to."


"I gave up on that dream long before I met all of you," Amy countered impatiently. "Look, Hannibal, if what you're really asking is how I feel about Face, the truth is – it's been building for a while. I can't define it, I can't explain it, and I'm certainly not going to call it a reason to stay." She shook her head at the thought. "My job – I used to think it mattered. Now I'm not sure. Not if it means any help I'll give you is long-distance and possibly subject to being traced."


At her words, Hannibal's own misgivings subsided slightly. If he called her in Jakarta to fish out information, she'd answer the call in a heartbeat. She was as committed to the team as the rest of them, which made this conversation even more difficult. He knew he had one chance to convince her to go.


"I admire and respect you and am grateful for everything you've done, but…speaking as your friend, I think you'd be an idiot to pass that kind of opportunity by. The Army already suspects you're helping us; if you get reassigned, they're likely to back off. We're lucky they haven't decided to press charges against you for aiding and abetting federal fugitives. Keep hanging out with us, and it's a sure bet they will. You're no good to us behind bars."

He could see his words were getting through to her in the way she sighed, nodding reluctant acceptance.


Hannibal took a deep breath, stepped forward to close the distance between them, and reached out to place a comforting hand on her back. "Take the job, try it out for six months. If you hate it, come home, call me, tell me how much it sucked, and we'll see about getting you back on the jazz again."


She lifted her shoulders up slightly, then released the tension with a short exhale. She looked at him and asked, "You'd do that?"


"You've earned it, Amy." He smiled reassuringly, though inside he was gloating at the victory. "Now, if you need to be back in LA by Monday, I'll see what I can do to get you there. Just let me know."


She didn't say anything for a long moment. He waited, allowing her the time to make a decision, even as he was aware that his presence was forcing her hand. "I need a plane ticket."


He clapped her shoulder. "You know we can do better than that. Just tell me where Face went."


She met his gaze steadily, clearly not surprised that he assumed she would know where Face was. "He went to the garage to check on the progress of the van. Do you want me to go with you?"


"No, I need you to go get Murdock. Tell him we're going to do a bit of flying – I'm sure he's already scoped out where the nearest airport is — and the two of you will need to meet me at the garage."



Friday morning, Amy awoke groggy and disoriented. She opened her eyes and winced as the sunlight shining through the window blinds hit her, and she realized she was in her apartment in LA.


A glance at her bedside clock told her it was ten-thirty. She also realized that the only thing she had on was the dress shirt she'd borrowed from Face months ago and a pair of underwear. She distinctly remembered going to the restaurant with the team; after that, she couldn't remember. She groaned as memory slowly came back to assault her. After the team had toasted her promotion, she'd gone with them to the small regional airport where Face had managed to secure a plane. It was a small corporate jet that was in the midst of being renovated in the interior, and therefore was just big enough for Murdock, Face, and herself. BA had been relieved to find out he wasn't going, as someone had to stay behind with the van, but he'd wished her well. Hannibal had elected to stay behind as well for the long drive back.


The resulting flight was anything but smooth. They'd hit a wall of storms along the way, and lightning crackled along the wings at times. After about an hour of flying, Amy had reluctantly agreed to the suggestion she sleep through the rest of it, since there was nothing else she could do. After a moment's further hesitation, she'd accepted the medical intervention to get her to sleep. Even though Face had halved the dose he normally gave BA, the sedative had still put her out faster and deeper than she'd expected.


Head pounding, she stumbled to the bathroom, where a glass of water sat ready, along with a sealed bottle of Tylenol and a note. She downed two of the pain reliever pills and the water, used the toilet, washed her hands, then read the note.


In Face's distinctive scrawl, it read: "Sorry, I stayed as long I could, but there are MPs watching your place."


The news didn't surprise her, and yet a part of her wished he'd been more willing to risk it. Hadn't their night together meant anything?


Even as she thought that, she sighed and rested her head against the cool tile of her bathroom wall for a moment. She knew if she'd been awake, she would have been shoving Face out the door, lest he be caught.  Later, when her head stopped pounding, she was going to call him. She missed Face already.


The phone rang just then. Briefly, Amy considered not answering it, then sighed and went to the nightstand to pick up the receiver.



"How are you feeling?" Hannibal asked her solicitously.


"Remind me never to drink and then fly on Howling Mad Airlines through a massive set of thunderstorms."


He chuckled. From the background noise, which sounded like he was calling from a truck stop, Amy surmised that Hannibal was calling her from a pay phone. "I heard. Listen, would you do me a favor? Go to Jakarta. Have a great time. Go be famous."


"And you're telling me this because…?" Amy asked, suddenly suspicious.


"Because I want to be sure you understand," Hannibal stressed, "that we know you were just following us for the story you could write. Any help you provided was merely in the context of making sure you had a viable story."


Realizing that Hannibal thought her phone was bugged, which, Amy realized, it probably was, she picked her words carefully. "Well. It was a pleasure interviewing you. When I'm famous, I will have you to thank."


Hannibal chuckled dryly. "Good luck, Ms. Allen. I'm glad to know you arrived safely."


Deliberately, Amy put disapproval into her tone as she answered, "Well, you made sure of it. What kind of people are you anyway?"


"Tsk, tsk. All this time, and you still don't know," Hannibal said. "We're the A-Team. We'll do whatever it takes."


She bit back the laugh that bubbled up in her throat and said soberly, "Goodbye, Colonel." She heard a distinctive click in her line. Taking a wild guess it was whoever had been listening in disconnecting, she risked dropping the façade. "Will I still be helping you?"


"We'll see," Hannibal said simply. "I'm not going to make any promises I can't keep. Now take some more Tylenol, get showered and changed, and go see your editor. Face already made your apologies; turns out, your editor was expecting you at eight am this morning instead of Monday. Face got him to expect you in an hour. Don't disappoint us." He hung up.


Automatically, Amy replaced the receiver on the cradle and did as Hannibal had told her. She was halfway to the LA Courier's offices before it dawned on her that not only had she followed Hannibal's orders without hesitation, she'd lost the chance to talk to Face about the change in their relationship.

One night with Templeton Peck wasn't going to be enough to last her a lifetime, and yet… She sighed again, and told herself that was more than she'd ever expected to have.



December 1984


On Christmas Eve, after visiting Murdock at the VA, Face took a chance and dialed Amy's phone number. Getting arrested and fingerprinted one week after his latest flame had decided she wasn't in need of rescuing had left him out of sorts, wondering if anything in his life was going to go right for a change. BA was spending the holiday with family. Face was supposed to meet up with Hannibal in three hours for their semi-traditional Christmas Eve dinner, but that meant he had time to kill.


Face pulled into the parking lot of Amy's apartment complex and sat for a while, contemplating his next move. He knew from previous conversations with Amy that her current schedule had her in Jakarta for most of the month. He also knew that Tawnia, who'd be the only person who might be in the know, was still in South America with her husband, and hers was a phone number Face didn't have. Contacting the paper was also an option, but this late on Christmas Eve, he was reluctant to use a 'family emergency' as an excuse for his need to know. His desire to see Amy wasn't that urgent, and if he did reach her that way, she was likely to think the team was in trouble.


He knew, too, he could easily head up to Amy's apartment and be inside in less time than it took to park his car. He didn't for the simple reason he didn't want to take the chance that she might be spending the holiday elsewhere, and waiting for her struck him as being just this side of desperate.


Plus, for all he knew, she might have friends over, friends who might not appreciate being interrupted – say a lover. He wasn't entirely sure he wanted to expend the energy in being just the old friend who'd wandered by since he was in town. A need had built up again in him: a need to see her, to hold her, to love her. She was the only woman who made him feel as if everything he was – conman, liar, thief, lover, soldier, fugitive – was someone she accepted without reservations. His mind flashed back to the last night they'd shared together and the way she'd given herself so freely.


He had never made promises to her about their relationship. In the six months since she'd left the team, the handful of phone calls they'd exchanged had been about everything else but whether or not they'd be lovers again sometime. He took comfort in the knowledge she had yet to refuse his calls. From her attitude and the words she'd said, Face could only assume she was either not holding her breath or was content to pick their relationship back up where it had been before the night in the hotel.


Face picked up his mobile phone and dialed.


After six rings, the phone kicked over to the answering machine. "Hi, you've reached me," Amy said. "Only you know if this is the right number. If it is, leave me a message. I may actually get back to you sometime before the tape runs out."


Face hesitated. He'd wanted to see her. He had no idea whether or not her home phone line was still tapped; after the initial contact, she always called him back from a pay phone. More to the point, what he wanted to say wasn't something he was sure he wanted to leave on an answering machine. He was pretty sure leaving a message that said he missed her, wanted to see her, and the distance between them really was making his heart grow fonder wouldn't go over well. It wasn't his style.


Finally, he said, "Merry Christmas and Happy New Year, Amy. I…I just wanted to tell you that. Stay safe."


With a sigh, he hung up the phone and drove away.


Amy got the message five days later, far too late to do anything about it. Hearing it made her realize she wasn't over Face yet. For a moment, she was tempted to find Hannibal and see if he knew where to find Face. Then she remembered where she was: in an airport, headed back to Jakarta after a brief holiday visit with her mother, clearing messages on her answering machine because she'd been in too much of a hurry to make it to the airport to do it before she left home. Her flight had been delayed, and she now had time to kill.


On impulse, she dialed Face's mobile phone.


"I'm sorry," the female recording said, "that mobile subscriber is currently out of range. Please try your call again."


Reluctantly, Amy hung up the phone, silently promising herself that when she got a chance, she was going to try again. Somehow, that opportunity didn't present itself, and the promise was soon forgotten.



February 1989


With a tired sigh, Amy opened the door to her apartment and staggered into her living room, hauling her luggage. The flight from Hong Kong had been an exercise in patience: four airplane changes, one delayed flight, and she'd nearly missed her connecting flights twice. Still, she reminded herself, the story had been worth it: an insider's look at how the former British colony was preparing for the future when it reverted to Chinese control.


Dumping her luggage in the living room, she moved confidently through the semi-darkness to grab a glass of water from the kitchen. Downing half of it in one gulp, she sipped the rest more slowly as she proceeded to haul her suitcases down the short hallway towards her bedroom. She was exhausted; in the last five years, she couldn't remember being home for more than a week out of every month.


Finishing the glass, she backtracked to put it in the kitchen sink, then stepped into her bedroom.


She flipped on the lights, aware that she had a bad habit of leaving high heels and clothing scattered on the floor caused by the fact she could never decide what to pack, and froze.


Not only had her shoes been neatly stacked in one area and her clothes draped over a chair, there was a man sleeping on her bed. More precisely, it was a half-naked man, who had a rather large, new-looking scar on the left side of his back, just under his shoulder blade.


Her heart stopped as the reason for such a scar formed in her brain. For a moment, she was tempted to let him sleep. She'd forgotten how watching him sleep made her feel, how she'd never publicly admitted to feeling tangled about her fascination with him. For a moment, anger surged through her -- anger that he hadn't told her that he was still alive, instead of dead like she'd been led to be believe. Then practicality won out; she needed to know why he was here.


She stepped over and tapped him on his cheek. "Face, wake up."


He awoke instantly. Rolling over, he sat up, glancing at the bedside clock as he did so. "Flight delays?" he asked, as if no time at all had passed.


Cautiously, Amy answered, "Yes. What the hell are you doing here? I heard you'd gotten caught by the military. The wire said you'd all been shot dead!"


"Tsk, tsk. Never believe everything you read, you know that. Besides, not even a five-star general can keep us for long," Face demurred. "We always find a way out. Why don't you sit down? Your feet must be killing you. Let me give you a rubdown."


They were, and for a moment, Amy hesitated. There were no good reasons for Face to be here, and a thousand reasons for her to not let him stay. Abruptly, she was aware he was wearing nothing but a pair of faded jeans that hugged his ass and the muscular length of his legs, and that he had a very nicely defined chest. The air seemed impossibly electrified as Face waited for her to respond. Nothing in his expression betrayed that he was looking at her as anything other than an old friend, and yet…her gut instinct told her he was hiding something.


"So is this your long-overdue apology for being out of touch, or did something else happen, Face?" she asked.


He looked at her and rose off the bed. Stepping forward, he held her close for several minutes before tilting her head upward. He leaned in for a kiss, then whispered, "Something else," before kissing her.


She'd tried her level best to forget the night in the hotel. It had been an interlude, nothing more.


Now, however, she was presented with the full force of his attraction for her. It was as if he suddenly realized he'd been given a second chance. For a long, pleasurable moment, Amy lost herself in kissing Face, lost herself in the familiarity of his mouth, his tongue, his body pressed against hers. He'd always aroused her, and she'd had to teach herself that he meant nothing in his passion: he was simply skilled at it, and they weren't lovers, but something deeper than friends. Hard-won lessons had her stepping back when they came up for air, and she stared at him, dazed.


"Templeton?" she asked shakily. She was too tired to lie; too exhausted to pretend she didn't want him and had never wanted him. Memories of how they'd last lain together heated her blood even more.


He looked at her. With a start, Amy realized he was trembling, as if his own control was on a fine string. "Don't ask me why I'm here," he said. "It's a long, ridiculous, and completely irrelevant story in which I got shot and someone – no one you know – went to jail. I…I just need you. Please, just let me love you tonight."


A thousand hesitations tumbled through her brain. For a long, wordless moment, Amy debated the wisdom of voicing any one of them. The memory of a night in Oklahoma flashed through her brain: the laps she'd punished herself with in an over-chlorinated pool for wanting a man she couldn't have, the next day when he'd finally shown her what loving him could be. Here he was, offering himself, and she was hesitating because, even after all these years, she wouldn't do anything to destroy the team.


"Does Hannibal know where you are?" she asked.


Face chuckled humorlessly. "He dropped me off. We talked it over…me with you is not a problem. Not tonight anyway. I missed you, Amy. Did you miss me?"


She smiled, then stepped closer. Tomorrow was soon enough for regrets. She kissed Face slowly, telling him in actions the words she'd wanted to say for years.


As if that had been all the permission he'd needed, he kissed her more passionately, deepening the kiss. His hands rose to unbutton the blouse she'd worn, pushing the fabric aside and undoing her bra, all without losing contact with her lips, with the ease of a man who'd had lots of practice at such a trick. She helped him along, breaking the kiss long enough to remove her bra the rest of the way.


Face looked at her as if he'd never seen her before, and she knew he hadn't, not in this way. "You're so beautiful, Amy," he said quietly.


She laughed softly. "You've seen me naked before; why compliment me now?"


He smiled. "Because I should have, back then. You've only grown more beautiful, Amy." Then he bent his head down and kissed and licked the curve of her neck, across her collarbone, then down between the valley of her breasts before he brushed his tongue across her right nipple, then started suckling on it. She shuddered at the touch and reached for him. He caught her hands in his and brought them to focus on the zipper of the skirt she'd worn.


Understanding his unspoken command, she unzipped her skirt and let it fall, leaving her clad in pantyhose. He skimmed a hand over her mound, causing her to catch her breath, then his hand slid across her belly, then moved it upward to focus on her left nipple, rolling it between his fingers until it was as taut as its counterpart. He then moved his mouth to her left breast.


Amy had never considered her breasts to be erogenous zones before, but Face was making her reconsider that idea. When he was finished with the nipples, he licked underneath each breast, tasting her there. No one had ever done that to her, and she trembled with new-found knowledge that such a caress ranked as one of the most erotic things she'd ever experienced.


Carefully, Face backed her onto the bed, then pushed her onto it. He took a moment to strip her of her pantyhose, leaving her naked. He then proceeded to taste and lick his way back up her legs, exploring her ankles, her calves, the backs of her knees, the breadth of her thighs, until he was in between her legs.


Gently, he pushed her legs apart, then licked her inner folds, causing her to moan. Every cell in her body was on fire; he'd made sure of it, and this intimate touch was almost more than she could stand. He licked her again, paused to allow her to thrust instinctively upward, then braced an arm across her hips and began to lick and taste her with more intent. Her breath caught in her throat; she'd forgotten how good he was at this, forgotten just how much he seemed to enjoy it. Now, he was showing her again.


She gasped his name as she let her head fall back against the pillow, arching up into his mouth, against his tongue. Time and again, he sent her soaring, leaving her to shudder through orgasms until she was cross-eyed with pleasure. Dazed, she lay on the bed. Face kissed her, letting her taste herself on him, letting her know just how wet she'd gotten, then said, "Be right back."


She closed her eyes. She didn't care where he went as long it wasn't far. She heard him rustling in his jeans, then the distinctive sound of a condom being unwrapped. He came back to her, and slid over her body and into her. He didn't slide all the way into her, clearly aware not all women could take him easily. She breathed unsteadily, startled at his above-average size and girth, and opened her eyes. He was braced above her, his hands on either side of her head, and his face was flushed with desire. His eyes glittered with need.


"Oh, God," she said shakily as passion pounded the blood through her heart, chest, and head, making her giddy. "I'd forgotten."


"Miss me?" he asked her with a wicked smile.


She half-laughed. "Yes, damn it." She breathed in deep, then pulled him into her using her internal muscles.


His eyes widened. "Amy," he said, startled. "God."


Now it was her turn to smile wickedly.  His hard length electrified her, and she suddenly wanted him as she'd never wanted anyone. She set the pace, thrusting up against him, and abandoned herself to the whirl of sensation. She was on fire for him, and he for her. She could feel the heat of his body course down the entire length of hers.


Abruptly, he rolled her over so that she was on top, somehow managing not to break the connection between them. Startled, she gasped as he grasped her hips, bringing her down on him. She could feel him so deep inside. For a heartbeat, she sat, panting, her chest heaving, unable to do anything more than to feel. He let her adjust to this new position, then thrust up into her. She took the hint, and soon they found the tempo that sent them into higher levels of ecstasy. In their passion, Amy found the confirmation she'd been looking for -- confirmation that he'd missed her, that he wanted her, that what happened so long ago didn't just belong to the past. It seemed incredible to think that he was here, now, loving her like this, but if this was a dream, she didn't think she could fantasize passion like this. She couldn't get enough of the way he felt against her, inside her, the way he entrapped them in the heart of desire until all she knew was the need for release. She shuddered to climax, calling his name.


His own passion spent, he somehow managed not to collapse onto her. He stayed within her a moment, then carefully withdrew. He staggered to the bathroom where he disposed of the condom, then returned to the bed to cuddle her close.


Exhausted, Amy soon fell asleep.


Morning dawned, and Amy woke abruptly to find Face watching her. She'd curled up against him in sleep, and she rolled over so she wasn't looking at him over her shoulder. He kissed her gently, as if he couldn't quite believe his luck, and said, "Morning. Sleep well?"


"Yes, very." She could feel the twinge between her legs that said she'd had sex, but it was a welcome ache. "You?"


"Never better. Do you have to go work?"


Just then, the alarm buzzed. Amy reached over Face's shoulder to turn it off; he obliged by sinking lower into the bed so she wasn't hitting his shoulder. "Much as I don't want to, yes."


"Call in sick. Spend the day with me. Please."


Amy didn't think twice. Something told her that when it was all over, Face was going to walk out of her life again, and she wanted to treasure every moment. "For you, anything," she promised recklessly.


She called in sick, blaming her flight in, and proceeded to spend the day with Face. He helped her take a shower, then proceeded to seduce her in the shower. He stopped only because he didn't have a condom, but she assured him it was okay, she was on the Pill, and he proceeded to prove to her that having a shower equipped with grab bars was a good thing. The hot water was nearly gone by the time they finally emerged.


He treated her to brunch at a finer-class restaurant than she would have normally gone. She was not surprised when he was greeted by name or when he chatted companionably with the hostess as they were escorted to a reserved table near the windows. What did surprise her was that a deep red rose lay across her place setting, its color a vivid contrast to the crisp white linen tablecloth.


Assisted by the hostess, Amy sat down. Her napkin was placed in her lap, then the hostess left. Picking up the rose, she inhaled its scent, then set it aside. Amy then eyed Face. "Just how long have you been planning this?" she asked him.


"Does it matter?" he asked her with a smile. "You're worth it."


"Only in that it makes me wonder even more why I haven't heard from you in five years."


He studied her a moment. "Out of the last five years, how many weeks have you spent in LA?"


She started to calculate, then stopped as a thought struck her. "You don't really care about the amount, do you? What you're really trying to say is that you've been busy with the team, and anytime you did call me, you got my answering machine."


Face nodded. "I wasn't sure if the military stopped considering you to be a possible tie to us until a month ago, so I stopped leaving messages."


"They've had me under suspicion all this time?"


He shrugged. "You kept showing up wherever we were, as far as they were concerned. Too many suspicious coincidences."


Amy sighed, not entirely surprised by his assessment. "That might explain why my bags keep getting searched every time I enter the country. As if I could hide any of you in my suitcase?"


He chuckled. "So how's the job going? I try to keep up with your stories, but I'll admit it's been a bit hit or miss – we were in Virginia for a while. I really liked your series on being an American expatriate in Paris."


"That was fun," she agreed. She was not surprised to find that Face had tried to keep up with her work. "I'm going to ask my editor if he'll let me do a piece on healthcare in America; I'm a little tired of living out of a suitcase. After seeing what it's like to go to a doctor in Hong Kong, I'm really interested in seeing what the truth is here."


"You had to see a doctor in Hong Kong?"


Amy waved off his concern. "No, but my translator did. He brought me along."


Soon, the conversation wandered to other topics. Face caught her up on the team, who were apparently off doing other things without him, and some of the clients they'd had. After some coaching, Face admitted that the team was trading some missions for something they wanted, but refused to admit to her what, precisely, they were doing or for what. She tried to get him to say, but he demurred and changed the subject. Some of her anger over the team's deception of their deaths faded as she realized the weight of the decision wasn't lightly carried. Whatever they were trading for, whatever they were currently doing, had to be something enormous if Face refused to even discuss it.


They had an enjoyable debate over current politics and world events. She'd forgotten how he could talk about nearly anything with ease, how comfortable she was with his company, and how much she'd missed him.
For a few hours, Amy felt like she was the center of his universe, and nearly forgot that she was with a man who was on the run. Face treated the day as if it was one long date: brunch was followed by a walk around the zoo, followed by a light dinner at a hole-in-the-wall Caribbean restaurant Amy had heard of but had yet to patronize. He was courteous, flirtatious, charming, and appeared to be completely focused on her. If he had any other worries, he glossed over them, until she understood that, in his own way, he was taking a vacation day from his life.


He drove them to her apartment, flirting with and touching her the entire time it wasn't necessary to shift gears in her convertible. By the time they reached the door of her home, she was convinced she'd never wanted anyone half as much as she wanted Face.


They stumbled through the door, impatient with need. As soon as the door was closed, Face threw the deadbolt and turned to her. For a moment, neither said a thing.


With courage she didn't feel, Amy lifted her head and smiled. "Care to take a dare?" she asked.


"Oh, what's that?" Face asked as he walked towards where she stood nervously, having dropped her purse on the coffee table. He had a nearly feral look to him, as if his desire for her had stripped him bare of all the masks he wore. For a breathless moment, Amy was tempted to run, feeling a bit like a deer trapped in a forest. She held her ground, if only to prove to herself she could. No one had ever looked at her like that, and the idea alone heated her blood, making it harder to think clearly.
"I dare you to race me to the bedroom." Not waiting for his reply, and giving in her need to flee, she ran towards the back of the apartment.


He caught her just as she reached the bed, kissing her as he did so. Laughing, she returned his kiss, then lost her laughter as he proceeded to show her in action what he didn't dare put into words.


That night, Face made love to her for the last time. Amy's heart shattered with every touch, and she was crying as he kissed her tears away and wrote his name on her soul. In the morning, he was gone. Lingering humidity in the bathroom left a clue that he'd showered before leaving. He left no note this time, nothing to explain his behavior, and in a way, Amy wasn't entirely surprised.


With a resigned sigh, Amy decided to file the whole thing as one random evening. Telling herself that for twenty-four hours, she was exactly who Face needed, helped ease the heartache. It didn't stop her from wondering just where he'd gone.





Reasons Why by Raine Wynd
Reasons Why 2 by Raine Wynd



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