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Somebody to Love Me

Somebody to Love Me

By Jullian Gray


Rating : NC-17

Summary: Face finds himself in an extremely abusive relationship. Can Hannibal help before it’s too late?

Warnings: Slash, F/O, F/H, sex, language, violence, rape.

Special Thank you to Debbie for going over ALL my mistakes, and making this a readable story.




Part 1

Face looked down at his watch and cursed; he was going to be late there was no way around it. Maybe Andrew wouldn’t be home yet maybe he would still be at work; he hadn’t answered the phone when he had called the house earlier, maybe, just maybe…

‘Yeah you just keep telling yourself that Peck, but you know as well as I do he’s waiting for you. Waiting and pissed.’

The young blonde wiped his face with his hands and prayed. ‘Please God, let him be working late.’

As he pulled his black BMW into the drive his hopes sunk when he noticed Andrew’s Bentley parked in front of the house.

Face didn’t know when things had gone wrong in their relationship but they had and he didn’t know how to change it. He had met Andrew Sparks at a nightclub a few months back…


“Hey there handsome, can I buy you a drink?”

Face turned to look at the man who had just spoke to him. He was a giant of a man standing at least six foot- six and must have weighted two-forty; he had dark shiny black hair that was graying at the temples with green eyes. He was nicely dressed in an expensive silk suit, which set him apart from the rest of the crowd in the nightclub.

“I’m fine, thanks anyway.” Face looked up at man standing beside him and flashed him a quick smile before turning back to the bar. “I appreciate the offer though.”

Face hoped the big guy would leave him alone he didn’t really want to draw any attention to himself. Hannibal had warned them all that the military would be looking for them, but he was twenty-two years old, he needed to get out. It was hard to stay hidden in a hotel room all the time; he needed to interact with other people. He had to have some fun.

“Come on just one drink, if you still don’t want to talk to me that’s fine I’ll leave you alone.” The big man raised his right hand and put his left hand over his heart. “Scouts honor, Promise.”

“Alright, just one.” Face couldn’t help but smile at the sight of the man standing there. “But that’s it.”

After the first drink and some very interesting conversations Face allowed Andrew to buy him another drink. By the third drink the two had moved to a quiet table in the back of the club.

“So what are you doing in this place?” Face asked Andrew as he took a sip of his bourbon. “I mean don’t get me wrong, I’m having a great time, but you don’t seem like the kind of guy who hangs out in bars.”

“No you’re right I don’t normally come to these types of places, I prefer quiet restaurants and a nice evening at home with a bottle of good wine.” The big man smiled at Face. “But I was entertaining a client across the street, he wanted to come in and see the LA night life so here I am. So tell me Templeton, what are you doing in a place like this, I mean after talking to you, you seem to have more knowledge and life experience than someone your age has the right to have.”

“I’ve had a few things happen in my life that made me grow up real quick.” Face sighed.

“You were in Viet Nam, weren’t you?”

Face stared at the older man in complete disbelief. “Does it really show?”

“You can see it in your eyes handsome. But if it makes you feel any better I spent my twenty-third birthday in Korea, as a Marine” Reaching across the table Andrew squeezed Face’s hand, “and that’s all I want to say about the military, and that subject period.”

Face relaxed when he realized that the other man didn’t want to talk about the service any more. Face discovered that Andrew was 17 years older than him, and owned his own security service, supplying all the stars with bodyguards. He had started the company with a few of his pals from the Marines and now it was a multimillion-dollar company. 

As the night wore on the two seemed to find more and more things to talk about. Face found it easy to relax around the other man and grew more comfortable with him as the night wore on.

“Hey Drew I’d love to chat with you the rest of the night, but I have to be at a meeting in,” Face looked at his watch. “Three hours, and if I don’t get cleaned up, I’ll never hear the end of it.”

“Tell you what, why don’t you give me a call when you get done with your meeting and we’ll meet for lunch.” Andrew pulled out a business card out of his wallet and handed it to Face.

“I’d like that a lot.” Face smiled as he reached out to accept the card as his fingers touched the card; Andrew Sparks captured his hand and raised it to his lips, placing a gentle kiss on Face’s knuckles. “I’ll be waiting for your call, handsome.”

Face left bar with a smile on his lips, he wasn’t going to say that he was in love, no not love, he truly only loved one person, and not that it would matter since that person was only interested in him as a friend and colleague, but he had enjoyed himself and who knew where this could lead. How did that song go? If you can be with the one you love then love the one you’re with… Face laughed to himself as he hailed a taxi and headed back to the motel he was currently calling home.


“Why didn’t I just refuse that damn drink?” Face sighed as started across the driveway. “I could have saved myself so much grief it I had just refused that damn drink.”…


“You have a late night, Facey?” Murdock laughed as he watched make his way across the warehouse where the team was meeting that morning.

Face moved past Murdock and BA to pour himself a cup of coffee. “You can say that.” he mumbled as he took a sip before moving to sit next to Hannibal. He flashed a quick smile at the older man then looked away when he saw the disapproving look in the blue eyes.

“I though we discussed you going out to bars and nightclubs Lieutenant?” Hannibal continued to stare at him making Face feel more and more self- conscious.

“Who said I want to a nightclub…”

“Because your clothes are a mess, you smell like stale cigarette smoke, and I can still smell the booze on your breath despite your best effort to cover it up with toothpaste and mouth wash.”

“I’m a big boy Hannibal, I can take care of myself.”

“You area also a wanted fugitive who needs to be on guard at all times, and you can’t be at your best when you’ve been out partying all night and chasing skirts.” Hannibal’s voice was starting to rise as he lit into Face. “Now the next time you feel like you have to drink I suggest that you buy yourself a bottle. Do I make myself understood Lieutenant?”

“Yes sir.” Face answered softly as he dropped his head.

“Good, now that we’ve got that out of the way lets get down to business.”

A few hours later Hannibal wrapped up their meeting and the team was free to go about their ways until Hannibal met with their first potential client one last time.

“Face, can I have a word with you.” Hannibal called out as he watched his team break up to go their separate ways.

“Sure.” Face kept his voice light but Hannibal could see the tension building in the younger man’s body.

Reaching out Hannibal placed a hand on Face’s shoulder. “Look kid, I’m not going to apologize for getting on you like I did, because you know how I feel about you going out and needlessly putting yourself in danger.”

“Yes sir.” Face nodded and started to drop his head but looked up when he felt a gentle squeeze.

“You are a very valuable member of this team, and I need you to be at your best at all times. You never know when we’re going to need your talents.”

“Yes sir.” Face wanted to say more he wanted to tell Hannibal the truth, that he had gone out last night not to drink and party, but because he didn’t want to be alone. He hated to be alone all the time, that it made him feel afraid. But he didn’t he kept his mouth shut, because if Hannibal knew how he really felt and what he really wanted he would beat the hell out of him and throw him off the team. “Good now get the hell out of here and get some sleep.” Hannibal smiled as he lightly shoved Face forward.

Hannibal watched Face leave the building then sighed deeply. “You’re a good one Smith, you can tell him how to live his life, but you can’t tell him you love him.” Hannibal shook his head at his own weakness to tell Face how he felt.


Face glanced up at the house, he still couldn’t figure out why he hadn’t left. How could it be that hard? ‘Just pack your shit and leave, Peck; how damn could have been?” 


“Hey handsome.” Andrew Sparks whispered into Face’s ear as he wrapped his arms around the younger man’s waist as he slid up behind the blonde.

“Hey yourself.” Face smiled as he turned his head so he could see Andrew.

“You haven’t been waiting to long have you?” Andrew looked at Face concern in his eyes.

“No, I just got hear a few minutes ago.”

“Great, lets get you fed, you’re too skinny.” Andrew hugged Face close to his body as he guided the smaller man out of the bar.

“I’m not skinny, I’m lean.” Face huffed.

“Skinny, skinny, skinny.” Andrew poked Face in the ribs causing him to laugh.

“Alright you win just quit.” Face wiped at the tears that were forming in his eyes from laughing so hard.

“So how did your meeting go this morning?” Andrew asked as the two men followed the hostess through the restaurant to their table.

“Other than getting my ass chewed out for staying out all night it was fine.”

“You’re boss chewed you out for going out to a club?” Andrew stopped next to Face at their table and pulled the chair out for the younger man. Face raised an eyebrow, “You deserve to be treated like the beautiful creature you are.” Andrew ran his fingertips over Face’s cheek. Face blushed at the attention and sat down. He scooted forward as the big man pushed the chair up to the table before taking his own seat.

“Now tell me what kind of asshole is this boss of yours?”

Face chuckled softly at Andrew calling Hannibal an asshole, though he was positive that the Colonel would find no humor in it what so ever.

“No he’s not an asshole, he just gets a little to protective when it comes to my health, I guess he feels like he’s not getting his money’s worth.” Face shrugged. “He use to be my CO in Nam, must have carried over from the service.”

“Well he can quit worrying cause I don’t plan on taking you out to any clubs, maybe Paris, or London for dinner once or twice a month, but no more cheep clubs.”

Face looked at the older man in complete disbelief. “We just met, Andrew…”

“Yes and to get to know each other better we have to go out, but who said I can’t take you to nice places.” Reaching out Andrew took Face’s hand in his own. “In fact if you aren’t busy tomorrow night I though we might try Rome for dinner.”


“From Rome to hell” Face muttered as he took another step forward.


Over the next few weeks Andrew continued to called Face and they had kept going out, each date would be to an exotic location. After several months Andrew had asked Face to move in with him.

“Temp, I was wondering if you would do me something for me?”

Face shifted in the big man’s arms so he could look up at him. “If I can.”

“I was wondering if you would move in with me?”

“Drew, I don’t…”

“Hear me out before you make up your mind.” Drew placed his hand over Face’s mouth silencing him. “We send all our free time together, it would save both a lot of time driving back and forth and meeting in different places. Not to mention the fact that you’re still living in a motel. No man of mine should have to live like that.” Leaning down Drew removed his hand and kissed Face. “Say yes Temp.”

Face looked up into the expressive green eyes, he cared for the other man, but he didn’t love him; but then again the person he loved didn’t love him back, so wouldn’t he be smart to move on, to find someone to care for and who would care for him…wouldn’t it be better than being alone.

“Yes.” Face whispered.

Drew instantly captured his mouth again covering it completely; the other man forced his tongue between Face’s lips searching out every part of it, while his hand began to explore Face’s body, rubbing, pinching and caressing. It wasn’t long before both men were moaning with desire and need and within a few minutes the blonde found himself face down on the mattress as Drew pounded into him. Face had to bite back against the pain; the older man was an extremely enthusiastic lover and didn’t believe in much preparation before hand. But who was Face to complain he came when they made love and he was just happy not to be alone.


“I’m so glad you agreed to do this Temp.” Andrew smiled at Face as he helped the blonde unload his car.

“I’m glad too.” Face smiled back as he pulled his suits out of the back seat of the car.

“You don’t have much stuff do you?” The big man looked at the few boxes in his arms.

“No,” Face shook his head. “The Army taught me to travel light.”

“I had more stuff in my foot locker than you had in your entire motel room.” Andrew frowned as he followed Face into the house. He set the boxes down on the living room floor then followed the blonde into the bedroom.

“Before I got out of the service, I was an orphan, I really never has time to acquire anything.” Face hung his dry cleaning up on his side of the closet. His side Face laughed to himself, first time he’d ever had a side.

“Well, we’ll just have to take care of that.” Andrew moved to wrap his hands around Face’s waist so he could pull the smaller man to him. “I can’t have my guy walking around with a limited wardrobe and no shiny trinkets.” Leaning down Andrew captured Face’s mouth, forcing the blonde back toward the bed as he deepened the kiss. When Face’s knees hit the bed Drew gave him a slight push causing him to fall backwards.

“I’m so happy that you moved in with me.” Drew moved to straddle Face’s waist, slowly he began to unbutton the younger man’s shirt. “And I can’t wait to make love to you in our bed.” Leaning over Andrew latched on to Face’s throat, sucking hard on the soft skin just below his right ear.

“Drew no marks, my boss will throw a fit if I meet one of our clients with a mark where they can see.” Face tried to push his lover back only to have him bite down on his throat. “Please Drew.” Face pushed a little harder; then gasp when the other man’s teeth broke the skin.

Seconds later the big man pulled back, “I just want everyone to know you’re mine.” Drew smiled before he leaned forward to capture Face’s mouth in a brutal kiss.


‘You should have known what was coming, you should have seen the signs’ Face took another heavy step forward, he was almost to the door,


“Man that must have been one heck of a date.” Murdock whistled as Face climbed into the van.

Becoming self-conscious of the bite on his neck Face adjusted his tie, thankful that they couldn’t see all the bites and scratch marks on his back and chest. Yes Andrew was a very aggressive lover, he sighed as he sat down gingerly in his seat in the back of the van.

“Where do you find them at Muchacho and how come you don’t send them my way?” Murdock reached out for Face’s throat then drew his hand back and laughed when Face slapped his hand.

“Another wild night Lieutenant?” Hannibal turned in his seat to look at Face, his blue eyes traveling up and down the younger man.

“No sir, I stayed in last night.” ‘Or rather he stayed in me’ Face bit back a laugh as he thought about the look that would get him.

“I’m glad to know you’re enjoying yourself Face, and I hope you’re ready to give your best.”

The shit- eating grin quickly disappeared off of the blonde’s lips when he caught his commander’s tone.

“Yes sir.” Face nodded. “I’m ready.” ‘I just hope to God I don’t have to run.’ He thought to himself.” 


All to quickly Face was standing at the front door, he looked back at the black BMW, he could always leave; just get back in the car. ‘No, It’ll be different this time; he promised that he would change. Yeah just like he did the first time he hit you. You remember that night don’t you, the first time you knew you should get out but didn’t…


Face quietly closed the door behind him as he let himself into the house. He had meant to be home last night, but Hannibal’s plan had gone wrong as normal, and they had to spend an extra day tying up the loose ends. He had tried to call Andrew and tell him that he wouldn’t be home, but his lover never picked up. Now he was hoping he wouldn’t disturb the other man as he came into the house. Quietly he crept through the living room on his way to the master bedroom

“Where the hell have you been, Temp?”

Face spun around at the sound of Andrew’s voice. He saw his lover sitting on the couch in the dark, with a drink in his hand.

“God you scare the hell out of me.” Face sighed.

“I asked you a question. I expect an answer, now!”

“Excuse me?” Face looked over at the other man not understanding what he was asking.

The big man slammed down his drink, quickly stood up and rushed across the room grabbing Face’s arms he shoved him back against the wall.

“I want to know who you’ve been with?” Andrew growled in the blonde’s face.

“Get off me!” Face snapped as he shoved the big man back off of him.

“I want to know where you’ve been?” Andrew reached out to snag Face again, he pulled the blonde to his chest, his finger’s digging into Face’s arms leaving bruises as they dug into the smaller man’s flesh.

“Let go of me.” Face warned as he tried to pull himself out of Andrew’s grip.

“Who is he?”

“He?” Face looked up confused. “What the hell are you talking about?”

“Don’t act stupid, who have you been out with, Temp? What’s his name? I know you’ve been out with someone else.” Andrew shook Face.

“Out with someone?” Face looked up at his lover confused. Suddenly it hit him why Drew was so angry with him. “I was at work, Drew you damn idiot I’ve been out of town on business.”

“If you were on business why didn’t you call me?” Andrew snarled as he tightened his grip on Face’s arms.

“I did try to call you, you never picked up the damn phone!” Face snapped back, his own anger increasing by the second. “ And since you don’t have an answering machine I couldn’t leave you a message!”

“Business? You sure it was just business?” Andrew glared at Face.

“Yes, business, I told you when we first met that I have to go out of town from time to time. It’s part of my job, remember?”

Andrew looked down at Face he stared deep into the blonde’s eyes.

“I’m sorry Temp.” he sighed.

“If you’re sorry then let go of me.” Face growled as he tried to pull away.

Instead the bigger man pulled Face to his chest and hugged him close. “Forgive me, please. I’m so sorry. It’s just that you are so damn good looking and I get worried that you’ll find someone else. Please forgive me.”

Face sighed as he allowed himself to sink into his lover’s arms. “I’ll forgive you, but if you ever grab me like that again I’ll kick your ass.”

“Sure Temp.” Drew chuckled as he kissed Face’s forehead. “Sure.”

“And get a damn answering machine.”

“First thing tomorrow morning.” Andrew bent down to capture Face’s mouth. “First thing.” He promised again as they broke apart.


Three weeks later

Face stood in the shower desperately trying to get the smell of Murdock’s aftershave off his skin. He still wasn’t sure why the pilot thought it was holy water and he needed to be blessed with it, but things could have been worse. At least he wasn’t trying to get it out of his car’s carpeting. He didn’t envy BA at all; it would be months before the smell was out of the van. ‘Note to self,’ Face sighed as he was rinsing off for the fifth time. ‘this Christmas, buy Murdock some decent cologne.’

Face sniffed his skin and frowned when he realized he could still smell the cologne.

“Damn.” He was just reaching for the soap when Andrew came into the bathroom ripped the shower door open and backhanded him sending Face crashing to the tile floor.

“Who are you fucking? I want his name now!” Andrew screamed as he reached into the shower to grab Face by the hair and pulled him out. “I know you’re cheating on me, you whore!”

Face struggled to regain his balance on the slick floor as Andrew pulled him to his feet. 

“Who is he?” Andrew demanded as tried to drag the blonde out of the bathroom and into the bedroom.

As soon as Face’s feet hit the carpet he managed to get traction and twisted his body around. It cost him a handful of hair but he was free.

“What the hell is your problem?” Face yelled as he backed away from his lover, putting distance between himself and the other man.

“This is my problem!” Andrew picked up Face’s shirt and threw it at the naked blonde. “I thought you loved me, but I see that you are nothing but a whore! The first chance you get you go out and screw someone else!” Andrew raged. “The least you could do was sleep with someone who has some taste in aftershave and smokes decent cigars.”

Face looked down at his shirt then up at his lover. He opened his mouth then closed it, his jaw setting in defiance as his own anger was building.

“If that’s the way you feel about me then I’m out of here, but let me tell you something you bastard!” Face pointed his finger at the big man. “That cologne came from a friend of mine from the VA, a good friend who a bad moment and spilt it all over me when I went to visit him, a friend who I care for like a brother not some cheap lay!” Face yelled back. “As for the cigars they happen to Cuban’s that I personally buy for my former Colonel. Who I had lunch with this afternoon and I will be meeting again tomorrow to discuss some business with!”

Andrew watched as Face stormed over to the dresser grabbed a pair of boxers out before pulling out the rest of his underwear. He then stomp over to the closet and grabbed his suitcase, throwing it onto the bed. He turned back to the closet and began to pull out everything that he had brought to Andrew’s house. Leaving all the clothing that his lover had bought for him.

“Where are you going Temp?” The sound of Andrew’s voice stopped Face dead in his tracks. It sounded so sad and hurt, Face turned to see the big man staring at him a lost look on his face.

“What the hell do you mean where am I going? You’ve accused me of cheating not once, but twice. You’ve just knocked the hell out of me, dragged me out of the shower and you have the nerve to ask me where am I going! Buddy, I’m out of here, and I don’t think it’s any of your damn business where I’m going!”

“Temp, please.” Andrew took a deep breath. “I didn’t mean to hurt you, it’s just that I get…”

“Yeah I know you just get so jealous well I’ve got news for you, I don’t cheat on people when I’m in a serious relationship with them, and I’m not a fucking punching bag!” Face snapped, as he picked up his dress shoes and threw them in the suitcase.

“Please Temp, let me make it up to you.” Andrew made his way over toward Face, who took a step back keeping some distance between them. “Please baby, don’t be afraid of me. I made a mistake and I’ll do anything to make it up to you.”

“Drew, I can’t…”

“Please baby.” The big man dropped to his knees in front of Face. “I love you, I don’t know what I would do without you…”

“Drew…I ”

“Please Temp, anything you want.” Andrew reached out and took Face’s hand in his. He kissed the blonde’s palm. “Anything Temp, I can’t lose you, please Temp, I love you!” Andrew continued to beg.

Face looked down at his lover, he knew in his heart that he should just cut and run, that this was the second time and he knew that there would be a third, but the words I love you cut to his soul. He needed to hear those words, it was something that he never heard as a child or from any of the hundreds of other people he had dated, and people did make mistakes, didn’t they? Hadn’t he made enough on his own over the years?

“It can’t happen again Drew, I mean it.”

“I promise Temp, never again.” Andrew wrapped his arms around Face’s waist and rested his head against the younger man’s stomach. Slowly and with some hesitation Face rested his hands on his lover’s head. A few minutes later Face was moaning in ecstasy as Andrew took his dick into his mouth and began to suck on him. The moan of pleasure was joined by a hiss of pain when the bigger man shoved an un-lubed finger into him.


‘Why didn’t I just leave that night?’ Face sighed as he slid his key into lock. ‘Things would have been alright; if I had just left that night. At least I would still be able to look the guys in the eye. 


One month later

“I sure had a good time, Muchacho.”

“I did too.” Face smiled as he watched his friend make his way toward the VA building.

“Tell Hannibal I said hi when you see him tomorrow.”

“Sure thing Murdock, have a good night.” Face waved as he pulled out of the parking lot.

Face whistled as he made his way up the walk and into the house, he had one hell of a great evening. Murdock had been great fun; though he had been a little off kilter he had been fun not out of control like he could sometimes get.

However the moment that he entered the front door everything went to hell. The instant he closed the door Andrew was on top of him, slamming him into the wall with a punch to the jaw that made him see stars.

“You lying little bastard, you been out whoring around haven’t you!”

Face managed to get to his knees but not before Drew was on top of him again shoving him down. “Drew stop…”

“I give you everything, but you can’t be happy with me can you?”

“Drew I took a friend to the movies remember, I told you that last week, remember my friend from the VA, I told you that I was going to take him out tonight.” Face coward back as the big man raise his fist. “Remember I told you, I take him out every month to a movie and the arcade.”

As the big man looked down at Face his hard eyes softened. “Oh Temp, I’m so sorry,

you have to forgive me.” Drew dropped down to wrap his arms Face, pulling him tight to his body, “Please forgive me, I’m a fool Temp, just a fool who doesn’t know what he has until he drives it away.” 

Face allowed himself to be held and later that night as his lay in his own semen, his body soaked with sweat, and his ass throbbing, he swore that he was leaving tomorrow after his meeting with Hannibal.


“Morning Hannibal.” Face mumbled as he came into the Colonel’s kitchen.

“Morning kid.” Hannibal smiled behind his paper, he knew Face hated mornings, but it couldn’t be helped, he had a meeting with a potential client that afternoon and he needed his Lieutenant’s opinion. Not to mention that he couldn’t pass up a chance to spend some alone time with the young blonde. “There is bread in the toaster and the coffee is fresh.”

“Thanks.” Face mumbled as he moved over to the counter.

“Chipper as always I see.” Hannibal snickered as he listened to Face move about his kitchen. What I would do for him to be here every morning with me Hannibal sighed as he tried to finish the article he had been reading before Face had come in.

“Hmmm, so do you any information on our prospective clients or do I have to do all the work from scratch?” Face grumbled as he pushed the toaster leaver down, before moving to pour himself a cup of coffee.

“I’ll have you know that I have all the basics, all you need to do is the follow up.” Hannibal put down his paper to glare at Face who still had his back to him.

“Well that’ll be a nice change.” Face laughed as he turned around to look at Hannibal.

As soon as Hannibal saw his Lieutenant’s face his playful mood disappeared. “What the hell happened to you?” Hannibal rose from his chair and moved toward the blonde, his instinct to protect the younger man coming to the surface.

‘Shit.’ Face cursed himself as he remembered the red mark on his jaw; he fought the urge to touch the wound.

“You wouldn’t believe me if I told you.” Face smiled as he turned around to get his toast putting his back to his Colonel. He was trying to get his facial features under control for the con he knew he had to pull off.

“Try me.”

“Hannibal,...” Face turned back around, instantly regretting it when he was the look on the older man’s face.

“Don’t tell me you were in a bar fight.” Hannibal sighed; he didn’t know how many times he was going to have to tell the kid to stay away from the nightclubs.

Face dropped his eyes and shook his head. “No sir; I wasn’t in a bar fight.”

“Then what happen to you?” Hannibal scowled when Face turned his back on him for the second time.

“Like I said you wouldn’t believe me.”

“Damn it kid, don’t shut me out; talk to me.” Hannibal begged letting the concern he felt for the younger man show in his voice.

Face took a deep breath and let it out slowly. “The bedroom door was half shut last night, I got up to go to the bathroom and I ran right into it.”

“You’re right, I don’t believe you.” Hannibal moved to stand behind Face; he noticed that his Lieutenant’s posture became stiff when he laid his hand on Face’s shoulder. “Who hit you kid?” he asked gently as he squeezed the slim shoulder.

“No one hit me, I told you I ran into a door.” Face reaffirmed but didn’t turn around. He couldn’t lie to Hannibal’s face. His Colonel always seemed to know when he was lying, and it was just easier to stare at the kitchen cabinet than in the ice blue eyes of the other man.

Hannibal closed his eyes and shook his head as he realized that Face wasn’t going to tell him the truth. “Alright kid, you ran into the door. But if I catch that door hitting you again I’ll tear it off its hinges and use it for firewood.” He squeezed Face’s shoulder again. “Understand Lieutenant?”

Face turned around and flashed Hannibal a quick smile. “Yes sir.”

Hannibal looked at the younger man for a few more minutes, he wanted to push Face farther on this issue, but he didn’t know what to say. Instead he reached up and gently touched the red mark. ‘If anyone ever hurts you again I’ll tear them apart.’ Hannibal thought as his fingers slid over the abused skin. ‘God how I wish you would let me protect you. I could show you what it’s like to be loved, I could make you happy.’ Hannibal thought as he continued to caress Face’s jaw with his fingers.

Face looked up into his Colonel’s blue eyes as the older man touched his cheek. There was something in Hannibal’s eyes that he couldn’t place; if he didn’t know any better he would have sworn... He had seen this look from time to time but, no it couldn’t be that…God he wished the Colonel wasn’t a lady’s man, he could fall into the older man’s arms and be happy there for as long as he lived; but there was no use in wishing. He knew that Hannibal liked the ladies and there was no use in hoping or wishing for more.

“Hannibal?” Face swallowed hard fighting the urge to lean into his Colonel’s touch.

Hannibal turned his gaze from the red mark to Face’s eyes. ‘So beautiful, If only you weren’t into the girls.’

“Just making sure that it’s not infected.” Hannibal smiled as he let his finger’s fall from the younger man’s jaw.

Face wanted to laugh and tell Hannibal it was a bruise not a scrape, but the look of concern in the older man’s eyes stopped him. “I’ll watch it.”

“You do that kid.” Hannibal smiled softly. “And if you need me for anything you call me.”


When Face got home that evening he found Andrew waiting for him at the front door.

“You have a good day at work Temp?” the big man asked him as moved over to the car and opened Face’s door. As soon as the blonde stepped out of the car he wrapped his arms around Face and pulled him into a tight hug.

“Not bad.” Face frowned at his lover, he needed to tell the other man it was over that things weren’t right between them and he felt he should move out. “Drew we need to talk…”

“I’ve got something for you.” Andrew slid his arm around Face’s shoulders and began to direct him toward the garage.

“Drew we need to talk about last night.”

“Please Temp I’m sorry about that I didn’t mean to hurt you. I love you so much and the thought of you being with someone else just… I love you so much.” Andrews stopped to wrap Face in his arms again. “Please Temp. I promise, I’ll go to counseling, I’ll do anything to keep you here with me.”

Face closed his eyes and sighed. “Okay, Drew, but you promise me that you’ll get help.”

“You won’t be sorry Temp I promise you won’t be sorry,” Andrew hugged him tight. “Wait until you see what I got you.”

“Look Drew I appreciate the gifts, but you don’t…”

“I want to get you things Temp. I want you to know how much you mean to me, how special you are to me.”

“You don’t have to buy me stuff, you shouldn’t be wasting your money.”

“It’s my money and if I want to spend it on you then that’s my right, now close your eyes”


Andrew moved to stand behind Face placing his hands over the blonde’s eyes. “Now no more arguing with me.” The big man pushed the garage door button and the door slowly rose, once it was open all the way Andrew removed his hands from Face’s eyes. “Open your eyes Temp.”

Face opened his eye to look at brand new black BMW sitting in the garage.

“Drew you shouldn’t have done that, it’s too much…”

“Not another word Temp…”

“I can’t accept this.”

Andrew’s hand clamped down hard over Face’s mouth, stopping him from speaking. “I’m not taking no for an answer, so shut your mouth. It’s yours; I had it put in your name. No more arguing; got it.” Andrew tightened his grip on Face’s mouth, bruising the skin.

Face nodded his head yes.

“Great,” Andrew moved removed his hand from Face’s mouth. “Now go and get cleaned up and I’ll take you out anyplace you want for dinner.”


Slowly Face turned the door knob; if the first time hadn’t been enough surely to God the second should have clued you in.’ ‘Why are you so damn stupid Peck.’ Face hung his head in shame as he pushed the door open. ‘Why had he let the third time happen?’


“Hey Drew you want another one?” Face asked his lover as he pulled a beer out of the refrigerator.

“No I’m fine.” Andrew’s voice called back from the other room.

Face shrugged popped the bottle open and made his way back into the living room. He settled back down on the couch next to Andrew his attention turning back to the football game.

“Don’t you think you’ve had enough?” Drew asked as he watched Face take another swallow.

“This is only my second, I mean it’s not like we’re going out tonight.” Face smiled at the other man before he took another drink.

Before Face had finished swallowing Andrew knocked the beer out of his hand and punched him in the side of the head. As Face tried to bring up his hands Andrew grabbed him by the throat with his right hand while his left hand balled into a fist and repeatedly punched Face in the rib cage. “I told you that you had enough, do you hear me, when I tell you to stop I mean stop!”

Face managed to get his hands up and grab a hold of Andrew’s right wrist, he tried to pry the bigger man’s fingers off, the other man stopped hitting him and added his left hand to Face’s throat tightening his grip on the blonde.

“Why don’t you listen to me?” Andrew screamed at Face.

“Can’t… breath…” Face gasped as he fought to take air into his lungs.

“I don’t tell you these things because I like to hear myself speak, I love you, but you are going to listen to me.”

“Please…can’t…breath…please…Drew…please” Face could see his black dots filling his vision. His fingers digging into the big man’s hand as he tried desperately to break his hold on him.

As suddenly as it started the attack was over and Andrew was holding him in his arms.

“Why Temp, why do you make me do these things to you?” the big man held Face close to his chest preventing him from moving away. “Why don’t you listen to me so I don’t have to keep hurting you?”

“Let me up.” Face croaked as he tried to sit up only to be stopped.

“Be still Temp.” Andrew warned as he tightened his grip preventing Face from moving.

“I want up.” Face demanded as he tried to sit up again.

Instead of letting him loose Andrew grabbed him by the jaw squeezed until Face stilled. “I said be still.”

Face’s mind was screaming to fight but he suddenly felt tired, he didn’t know why but he allowed Andrew to hold him, pinning him to his body preventing him from moving, until he fell asleep.


“Nice car Muchacho.” Murdock stated as he climbed into the black BMW. “Who did you con for this one?”

Face flashed a smile but it quickly disappeared. “I’m paying for it, trust me.” he sighed as he put the car into drive.

Murdock looked over at Face noticing that Face was dressed in a black turtleneck with a sports coat and jeans. “This isn’t exactly your normal attire, we going skiing?” Face was dressed nice but he didn’t look comfortable, his friend seemed to look tired and stressed.

“I wish.” Face laughed as he pulled into traffic. “Is a nice thought though, a week at a ski lodge; now I could handle that.”

“Bet you could.” Murdock smiled “All those little ski bunnies.”

“Yeah.” Face swallowed hard. “Real nice.”

Murdock noticed the sudden change in Face’s attitude and tried to change the subject.

“So where have you been?”

“I’ve been pretty busy lately. You know me always on the move.” Face flashed another quick smile. “I’ve had some personal stuff keeping me busy.”

“Come on Face, how much personal stuff can a fugitive have to take care of.”

“I have a life!” Face snapped.

“Sorry I didn’t mean to…”

“No, I’m the one who is sorry I shouldn’t have snapped at you.” Face quickly apologized.

“Not a problem, so what’s this case that Hannibal has gotten us into.”

“The usual big guy trying to take over a mom and pop organization.”

“You don’t sound too excited.” Murdock looked closer at Face noticing that his friend wasn’t smiling, or even pretending to be excited about the case.

“It’s not like it’s a new deal, just change the names, but the cases are the same.” Face sighed.

“Come on, where is your since of adventure, where is your charisma?”

“Same place I left my guts.” Face mumbled to himself.


“Nothing.” Face sighed then flashed a quick smile. “Hey it could be a beach front resort.”


Late that night.

Face looked at his watch, he was going to be late getting home, even if he drove like a manic he would still be late.

“Am I keeping you from a hot date, Lieutenant?” Hannibal asked as he noticed Face looking at his watch for the fifth time in 30 minutes.

“No sir.” Face flinched at the sound of his commander’s voice.

“Good because we’re staying the night here in town. I need you to get us a couple of rooms for the night.”

“Stay the night? Hannibal, we can have this wrapped up in another few hours, why do we need to stay another night?”

“Because I don’t think we have all of thugs rounded up and I don’t want to leave the Taylor’s alone until I’m sure. Now do you have any more questions or comments?”

“No sir.” Face dropped his eyes to look at the ground.

Hannibal continued to stare at Face for a few more minutes, there was something wrong with the kid, over the past few months Face had become more and more withdrawn, he complained less and less, but what worried him the most that Face no longer came around just to come around. Face had to have a reason to come and see him and when he did he come over he constantly looked at his watch and would hurry out the door as soon as they were finished.

“Alright, Murdock go with Face we’ll meet you in a few hours.”

“You got it Colonel.” Murdock flashed Hannibal a quick salute before wrapping his arm over Face’s shoulder. “So what’s it going to be Face, the Ritz, the Plaza?”

“Murdock around here you’ll be lucky if I can find a Holiday Inn.” Face frowned.

11:30 that night

“Look Drew I thought I would be home tonight but…”

“No I’m not out with…”


“Drew listen, I’m not… will you please just listen to…”

“Drew, Drew…” Face swallowed hard as he hung up the phone. He moved over to the bed and sat down heavily. There was going to be hell to pay when he got home. He could tell by the sound in his lover’s voice that he was in trouble.

‘You can always leave, get the hell out, just go to Hannibal or BA’s place stay with them until you can find another house.’ The little voice in his head screamed. ‘Just don’t go back.’ Face dropped his head into his hands. ‘Yeah that would be real good. Hannibal, can I stay with you? ‘Why, I’m afraid of my lover, no not her, him…’

No, he couldn’t go to his friends they wouldn’t understand, how could he tell them that the great Templeton Peck, lady killer extraordinaire was gay, okay maybe not gay but at the very least bi-sexual. Face shook his head, no they wouldn’t understand, hell if anything they would throw him off the team, probably even beat the hell out of him to boot.

“Hey Face, I’m going across the street to the convenient store you want anything?” Murdock asked as came out of the bathroom.

“No, I’m alright.” Face looked up.

“You sure, Muchacho?” Murdock sat down beside Face, putting his arm around the slim shoulders of his friend.


“You know if you want to talk I’m here.”

“I appreciate that, but I just have some personal stuff to take care of.”

“Oh don’t tell me the great Faceman is having lady trouble?” Murdock chuckled as he lightly punched Face in the arm.

“Something like that.” Face smiled. “Hurry up and make your junk food run, I’m going to bed.”

Murdock quietly slipped into the dark motel room, he had only planned on being gone for a few minutes but he had spend almost half an hour trying to decide if he wanted cookies or candy. In the end he decided that he was an adult and he could have both if he wanted them.

“Face, you asleep?” Murdock called out softly as he entered the motel room. When he got no answer he turned on the TV and moved over to his bed and began to open the bag of M&M’s. When Face rolled over in his sleep Murdock had to bite down on his tongue to keep from shouting out in alarm. He could see the reason Face had been wearing a turtleneck earlier. Moving closer he studied Face’s throat, the purple and yellow bruises that started at the middle of Face’s neck and continued to the base and down his collarbone. Murdock wanted to shake Face awake, he wanted to demand the younger man tell him who had done this to him. 

“It’s rude to stare.”

Murdock jumped when he heard Face’s voice.

“Face, what happened to you?” Murdock moved over to sit on the bed beside his friend.

“It’s complicated.” Face sighed.

“Complicated, what’s complicated, someone tried to strangle you.”

“It’s not like that, I got into an argument…Look I don’t want to get into this, what happen is over and done with.”

“Does Hannibal know about this?” Murdock asked as reached out to touch Face’s skin.

“No, and he’s not going to find out.” Face stated as he flinched back.

“Face, he should know…”

“No! He doesn’t need know!” The words tumbled out of Face’s mouth; closing his eyes he took a deep breath. “I’ve taken care of the problem it’s not going to happen again.”

“Face, if you’re in trouble, we can…”

“I’m not going to argue about this anymore, just let it go.”


“Let it go!” Face snapped.

“Sure, Muchacho.” Murdock frowned. “If you don’t mind someone trying to kill you, why should I?” Murdock moved back to his bed. When he turned to look back at Face he regretted his harsh words. Face looked so hurt. “I’m sorry, I didn’t mean…”

“I know, and I promise if I need you guys I won’t hesitate to ask.”

Murdock nodded, but he knew his friend was lying.



Somebody To Love Me by Jullian Gray
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