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by Susie Owens
Rated: PG 13
Summary: Response to Murdock's Dark Side Challenge. The team grieve for their friend and try to understand.
Warning: Main Character death
Author Notes: I hope this turns out. It's something that has been in my head forever.
Clenching his fist, he got up slowly and turned to his other two men. "I'll be in the van."
nodded as he watched
Face looked up from slowly stirring his coffee and glared unemotionally. "And we're not?"
He sighed as he went back to stir his coffee. "Why did he do it, BA? Why?"
BA shook his head sadly. "I don't know."
"But it was senseless. What was he thinking?"
"At least you got to say goodbye," the sergeant replied softly.
He looked at Face but knew that his words had gone unheard, the lieutenant too was thinking back to the day before.
Murdock sat at the controls trying his best to get the plane to obey him. "Come on, baby, you can do it."
Face looked over at him. "Murdock, what's wrong?"
Murdock glanced across. "We've got a leak and we're losing fuel fast."
Face looked up at the gage and saw that Murdock was right. "What now?"
Murdock smiled at him but not his usual one. The smile made Face feel uneasy. "Murdock?"
"You and the guys, you've gotta jump."
"Me and the guys? Don't you mean *we've* got to jump."
"No, I mean you guys. I've got to stay with the plane." Murdock spoke so calmly that Face wondered what was going on.
"Why? That's crazy. We have enough parachutes."
The plane jerked again before Murdock could answer. He banged hard on the controls then spoke sharply to Face. "Face, you've gotta go, *now*."
Murdock shook his head. "Face, please, I have to stay. I have to make sure that no one gets hurt."
"Murdock, we're in the middle of nowhere."
"Face, who's the pilot here, you are me?"
"You are, but I know where we are. You can jump too. We've done it hundreds of times before; you never had a problem then.
"You just don't understand."
"What? What don't I understand?"
Murdock was silent for a moment, before slowly nodding. "Okay Face, you do have a point. We are away from residential areasÍ I just want to try and keep the plane in one piece."
"Murdock, right now you are far more important then this plane."
The pilot just sighed
His friend placed a hand on his shoulder. "You okay? You don't seem yourself today."
"I'm fine. I'll be with you in a few moments."
The conman got up. "Okay. I'll tell the others."
Murdock acknowledged Face with a wave of his and sighing deeply returned to finishing up what he was doing.
he was done Murdock followed Face out to the cabin of the plane.
"What's wrong, Face?"
"We've got to jump."
was the first to leave the plane his parachute opening automatically.
men nodded as Face jump.
nodded as he went towards the door. Suddenly
he landed Face ran over to him. "
untangling himself from the parachute
heard the plane as it crash into the ground and saw the flames as they engulfed
it. Face ran towards the down plane,
Noticing the Murdock was not breathing, Face quickly began CPR. He kept doing it hoping he would get a response. Slowly Murdock opened his eyes and looked up. He tried to reach up and touch Face but he was too weak. The conman took Murdock in his arms.
"I'm sorry, Face."
"Sorry about what?" Face's voice chocked.
Face never got a reply. Instead he watched helpless as his friend fought for breath, jerking in his arms with every labored cough. Then suddenly, the big brown eyes widened and the pilot seemed to relax, going still in his arms. The eyes closed, for the last time.
Face looked down at Murdock and knew he would never see his dark brown eyes again. Holding Murdock's body, he cried.
went into the men's room to be alone. He was hurting just as much as Face and
BA pounded his fist into the bathroom wall and made a dent in it. The big man splashed water in his face to keep himself under control. Glancing up, he caught the reflection of Face as he stood by the doorframe watching him.
The sergeant nodded, took a paper towel and wiped his face.
Face slowly walked over to him. "BA, I'm sorry I snap at you..."
BA nodded his head. "I know, man, don't worry 'bout it. We handle the fool's death in our own way."
Face smile weakly. "Thanks, BA."
BA returned the smile.
He stopped knowing that it would do no good. Taking out his cigar, he began to look for a lighter.
it, where's that stupid lighter?"
the two men when out to the van. When they got there they found
To my family
I hope you can forgive me for
what I've done. I know that you are all hurting but I saw no other way. No,
please don't think I'm suicidal. If there was another way I would have taken
it. But there wasn't. This is not easy. Sorry for the water spots but I was
crying. I found out that I have cancer. I guess all that smoking in
Guys, I didn't want you to see me die, not like that. I saw my uncle die of cancer and I didn't want you to go thought that. I hope you can find it in your hearts to forgive me but I wanted to die the only way I felt free.
Your teammate and friend
Face wiped away his tears and looked at BA and Hannibal. He had already forgiven Murdock and he knew by the looks on their faces that they had too. Now all they had to do was forgive themselves.
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